I am so done being pregnant!... RANT!
on 12-03-2009 at 09:23 PM (119 Views)
So I haven't posted anything in a very long time... I didn't on our family Blog either... just updated the other day over there... but I feel like I need to scream, and in fact have been crying most of the day. Chalk it up to pregnancy hormones and uncomfortably in me. I am SO done! I am currently 38 weeks and 5 days pregnant and SO done! I had an OB check today. I am sure that most women would be fine with the news that I got, me... I don't quite understand what's wrong. At 36weeks (almost) I was 2-3cm dilated and at a -1 station, at 37 weeks (almost) I was 3cm, 80% effaced and -1 station, at 37.5 weeks (would have been 38 week apt) I was at 4cm, still 80% and -1... so I thought progress right!? I thought 'd been having contractions and that things would be a but further... Well today (38w5d... 39w? apt) I am STILL at 4cm and all he would say was that I am 90-95% effaced... WhOoPiEe (note the sarcasm)... oh oh and I am measuring at 41 weeks (What the heck!???). Faith's water broke at almost 1cm, so I really have no comparison to her... with Megan I was 6cm at my 38 week apt, Angie (my wonderful OB and family friend) told us to tie up our loose ends and come back to L&D later (so that she could deliver)... well I was still at 6cm when we got there and they used pitocin to help things along (which is no fun!) when they finally broke my water, I finally felt real contrax... and I had her within an hour and a half! ...next apt is already Monday...
I don't know where I am going with this... except to just rant! But, I am just frustrated that this is taking so long. I am uncomfortable, I can't breath (I haven't been able to since the end of Sept), my pubic bone HURTS - like it's bruised, and I have little pains all over my body... I just want to be done and sleep on my tummy again!
Another thing I realized today... I think subconsciously I wanted this baby home before MIL gets here so that we could adjust to this new little life in our home before she came. Not that I don't want MIL here, I DO, I really do! But she was there when Megan was born and I don't think we had a chance to adjust to being a family of four until MIL left, which was a stress for the rest of us (added on top of the normal stress that Megan added). So I think I wanted that too, just a little bit of time as the five of us, before we have family swoop in on us (MIL will be here for two weeks from the 12th to the 26th and my dad is coming Christmas eve to the 26th as well).
OK I think my rant is over... I think I am going to have either another cup of tea or cocoa and finish watching Private Practice...
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